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Starting Something New...

by Cory on July 22, 2019

I quit my fucking job! I almost have a new job, maybe. I might have about a month for a nice vacation.

I haven't been keeping up with my projects during the job hunt and I fell off the meditation wagon really hard. I'm in a much better ...

Highlights from the web

The Uninhabitable Earth

http://nymag.com/intelligencer/2017/07/climate-change-earth-too-hot-for-humans.html

It's a comprehensive summary of global climate change. Also read the comments for a bit... (Read More)

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    Powder Keg

    by Cory on July 2, 2019

  • Slacker Zen

    Session ?

    by Cory on June 3, 2019

    Damn, I haven't been doing these lately. I flew to Boston this past week and went to a job interview. It was pretty stressful.

    But that's not why I'm making this entry. I just happened to go get some water with a work friend and we sat down outsi...

  • Slacker Zen

    Session 5

    by Cory on May 28, 2019

    Note to self: need to do this more regularly. Every night before bed?

    Was unusually calm this time. Not sure if meditation is working because I was stressed and depressed and angry after getting bad news on Friday but then I felt strangely calm a...

  • Slacker Zen

    Session 4

    by Cory on May 22, 2019

    I'm sitting seiza on my bed. The lights are on and I'm staring at the books on my bookshelf.

    Slightly elevated heartbeat. Probably around 80bpm. Minor, dull pit in stomach but nothing extreme.

    I'm concerned about my definition of success and cha...

  • Slacker Zen

    Session 3

    by Cory on May 22, 2019

    Not sure if it's because I was so tired but it was really easy to keep my head empty this time.

    I was also able to slow my heart rate and dull the pang of anxiety for about 20 seconds at a time.

    Concentrate on breathing. Sitting on my bed in the...

  • Slacker Zen

    Session 2

    by Cory on May 17, 2019

    I tried to concentrate on not concentrating but my mind would wander. I think meditating must be like holding your breath, but right now I can't even stop wandering for more than 3 seconds.

    I have a song stuck in my head. That's ok.

    Keep replayi...

  • Game Programming

    Godot Jam 2: Bouncy Block

    by Cory on May 12, 2019

    Yeah that's right. I'm not done.

    LADIES AND GENTLEMEN, I PRESENT TO YOU: BOUNCY BLOCK

    This is what I have at the end of the day. I know it's not Saturday, but better late than never. I was going to just go for a white cube, but this image of a...

  • Slacker Zen

    Session 1

    by Cory on May 11, 2019

    Current State of Mind:

    Heart beat is fast. Burning in my chest, that feeling you get when something bad happens. I think people usually say "pit in my stomach". Quite bad, almost 24/7.

    Fearful

    Almost in a loop, I experience these three thoughts...

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