Slacker Zen

Session 4

by Cory on May 22, 2019

I'm sitting seiza on my bed. The lights are on and I'm staring at the books on my bookshelf.

Slightly elevated heartbeat. Probably around 80bpm. Minor, dull pit in stomach but nothing extreme.

I'm concerned about my definition of succe...


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    Long Prep Time...

    by Cory on June 3, 2015

    Sheesh, I've been kind of dragging my feet lately. There's a lot of personal stuff going on, but I haven't given up on my projects. It's important to juggle the high priority things in life rather than focusing on one issue to the point of suspend...

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    I've Woken the Slumbering Beast

    by Cory on June 3, 2015

    It's starting to become clear that the VP of HR from my old job is probably behind this all. I will call her O. She was in charge of overseeing all activity on my past HR marks. She seemed nice enough when she was doing my exit interview, but obvi...

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    This is the New Normal

    by Cory on June 2, 2015

    I can't sleep. It's like 3:30 AM or some shit, just look at the timestamp. Goddamnit.

    I went to the lawyer today. His office was in downtown San Jose, on the fifth floor of some old timey looking shared office park building. He had a pretty recep...

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    I Can't Breathe

    by Cory on June 1, 2015

    I can't breathe. I'm so anxious all the time that I can't sleep. I'm supposed to meet with a lawyer at 10:30 tomorrow and I just hope that he will help me out. I don't know what to do.

    As my situation draws out longer, and with each passing devel...

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    F.E.A.R.

    by Cory on May 28, 2015

    I'm getting a lawyer. I need to do a consultation because something doesn't feel right to me. I'm realizing now that my recruiter's "anonymous [previous company] contact" might not necessarily be from HR and, on top of that, doesn't seem to have l...

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    I Feel Sick

    by Cory on May 27, 2015

    I didn't sleep well last night. I feel like I've always been a paranoid person and until now there was no reason to believe my irrational anxiety. But that last phone call is just making things a lot worse.

    My stomach has been churning all day. T...

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    This Ship is a-Sinkin'

    by Cory on May 27, 2015

    Summer-y night. Dark, slightly chilly.

    I got off a 45-minute phone call with a recruiter for a big tech company. He told me that my interview went well and the team liked me and were leaning towards hiring me. That's the good news. The bad news? ...

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    You are a Loser Until You Win

    by Cory on May 26, 2015

    It's Tuesday. The weather is sunny again, my fellow slackers, and my outlook is looking pretty bleak. I received my last unemployement check this past Saturday and, while I still have my savings, the psychological factor of not receiving any incom...

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